Hello friends,
This post is about body awareness, realisation, it’s about the image we have of ourselves and it’s about how clothing makes all the difference.
Here’s something I’ve learnt the last few days.
I’ve learnt my waist size: 24/25 perhaps a 26 if I get bloated? My inside leg size: 28. I’m 5ft 1.
What does that say to you? Petite, right? Well this gal has been buying non petite clothes all her life, then feeling incredibly frustrated and deflated when she can’t find anything in the shop that fits her. Apart from H&M, I got a lot of time for H&M. But whilst they fit my waist, I’m still struggling with the legs!
It’s taken me 22 years to realise the power of the petite section.
I mean how I’ve completely blanked the idea of it is mind blowingly idiotic.. since I’ve been the same height since year 9, you’d think I’d know better, but apparently not.
One thing I will say about why I avoid stuff is that I’m a cheap CHEAP girl. My idea of going shopping is seeing what’s in the Primark sale or in charity shops – and I’m running out of patience with both.
SO.. I took to eBay and Depop – GAME CHANGER. Now yes, risky because you can’t try it on, but I barely try stuff on anyway because I hate shopping it’s stressful – there’s humans involved and we all know how I feel about that.
But, I have to say, I’ve had a great and fab time so far!
My first piece that arrived was a bargain of just £4 from eBay, Topshop Petite with the labels still on – was £20 new.. me likeyyy! It’s a striped wrap top, a new style for me too!!
I have to say, this has changed me forever. I put it on and immediately got excited, not only did it fit me perfect, the quality was nice and suddenly I had a lil amount of confidence to ooze out! Something I have felt, well.. never!
From the humans in my life so far, I’ve had nothing but compliments when I wore it too! So that wasn’t the worst thing in the world!
The Shopping Experience
I recently took to Topshop after myself and Kiz got excited about the top in the picture, he decided I should go and try some jeans that will fit me well!
So we make it into Topshop. I made my way into the jeans section – immediately overwhelmed by the rows and rows of the same jeans in different colours, then a different jean with a variation of rips. OH not to mention every single pair is a different size!
But somehow I kind of liked it, it had a very unique feel to it, not like in Primark where everything is just one size.. the different waist and leg lengths made the whole thing more.. tailored.. duh!
I took in a pair of Jamie jeans – a pair of Orson? I think that was it, and a pair of Joni jeans. The Joni jeans were the ones I’d heard most people talk about – and I soon realised why!
I made my way to the changing rooms, a little anxious as anywhere but there was a group of girls gathered on the light pink cushioned bench that sat in the middle of the mirrored square room.
I pulled back the curtain and SOMEONE WAS IN THERE NAKED!!
Not really, I just wanted to wake you up a bit..
Why are changing room curtains so tall and heavy, I had to keep double checking that there were no gaps! I’m on my tippy toes trying to lug this massive bit of cloth across the doorway that protected my body from being exposed to the girls on the seats..
I can hear them giggling whilst I’m getting changed, EVERY part of me says omg they’re laughing at you (even though I knew they weren’t) but I held it together and tried on these fabulous custom fit jeans!
First the Jamie jeans – they were okay, they fit nice but they had hardly any stretch in them and they weren’t the comfiest..
Then the Orson (kind of a mom style straight leg number)- I got a waist 25 but they were massive so not sure what that was about?! So no.. not for me.
And then.. it’s was Joni’s turn..
I got nervous babes.. I’ve heard good things but they looked bloody skinny.. skinnier than I was. I knew that I didn’t look like the size 0.01 mannequin that rocked these either.
Anyway, I approached with confidence – I swear as soon as my leg started to go in they began to mould to me.. my foot went through the ankle hole (that was my worry) no problems!
And the waist?! Babes let me tell you something about these jeans.. as a size 4/6 with little curvature and no bottom, I found myself having shape.. they gave me hips – or at least brought them out a bit more!
Confidence level had risen again.. I was feeling myself for a hot minute but also sweaty because changing clothes is a workout and I was still aware I was in the middle of a shopping centre with a curtain blocking my exposure.
Long story short gals.. the hype and the admiration of the Joni jeans is one I am joining. Honestly, putting the jeans that I walked in there with, back on. Was the most hilariously disappointing experience ever!! I walked out to Kieran giggling at the material that fitted so poorly around my legs. “I need a pair of Joni jeans” I confirmed to Kieran, and got straight on eBay that night looking for a second hand pair.. (well I’m still a cheap girl, they were nice jeans but not enough for me to take out a loan)
Thus, here I am now.. sat in my bedroom on a Sunday writing this blog post, getting a little giddy at the fact that I’ll have more petite parcels coming through the door tomorrow morning.
I’ve never gone out so much to treat myself to a new wardrobe, I’m not a girl that buys a nice new top every time she goes out – I hate spending money. So it’s big deal for me to do this and it’s well needed!
I was a massive believer in just wearing anything, it doesn’t have to be good quality and a baggy t shirt will do.
My mind is changing, your clothing is a form of self care and says a lot about you and I won’t lie.. I ogle at clothes so far from what I’d consider budget friendly (like Topshop, Next, Zara) but if you can get a bargain, or love some second hand stuff – you can have clothes that fit you properly, are good quality and perhaps restore a confidence in you that you deserve to have.
I’m not saying your whole wardrobe should be good names.. mine certainly won’t be.. and I will still run to Primark sale racks and get excited. But perhaps I’ll be more mindful about the money I spend and make sure that the clothes I buy; are worth it and make me feel good.
This was a chatty one!
Thank you for reading friends,
Kara xo